Going to a friends house party tonight.
not sure how to feel about that because i gained.
but...yeah, lots of vodka...sounds like a plan.

also got another friend over for the day because her internet is dead and she needs something to do, so hassling me was her best plan, lol.
she gets offended if i dont eat with her so either i'm not going to offer her food.
or.
i eat salad whilst she eats noodles or whatever.
(it's odd though because she's overweight and is always complaining about people with food issues, then she calls me up yesterday and tells me she only had a coffee for lunch...i mean...what is she trying to prove???)
idk.
AHHH thats another thing! what do i wear?!?! the grey lacey dress i want to wear is in the wash...hmm if i wash it now it will be clean! yaaay sorted.

lol.

oh my god why has LJ died on me??? it's taking ages to load and then is not formatted properly and looks a mess T_T
hope it fixes soon...

anyways, 97.8lbs today, same as yesterday.

also my itunes has messed up alot of my songs, they won't play, or they just stop playing half way through, but i'm not sure what songs its messed up until it plays them, so i have 4000 songs to go through to deleat then re-download >.<
man that sucks...

still doing my 250crunches a day.
wooo.

still can't decide if having 2 lj's is a good or bad idea.
i feel like i'm hiding my ED.
which makes me feel silly, because bleah...

I took laxatives again last night,
after the fiasco of having my friend stay over and eating far too much without the safety of purging, i felt like i deserved the pain of the laxatives.
Trying to keep my fluids up.

It's so annoying that this disorder takes over your life, and thinking about uni work takes so much effort...but i will write a list of things to do before i return to uni in september.
Then maybe i'll get them done ok.

xxXxx